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Engaged….

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ricky was my boyfriend…now fiancé..he is cuban but lives in Germany since 12 years.

We have been together now for almost half year. The way we met was undescribeable. We saw eachother and both of our lights went out. It was attraction that i cannot put in words. I actually got affraid of it at first..affraid of that I could lose control..it was just so strong. I wanted to take off…but he wouldn’t let me…he cancelled his 1-week vacation on Mallorca where he was supposed to fly next day….when I took off a whole bunch of strange things happened that somehow led me back to him.
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Ever since that day we have been together almost everyday…we moved in together right away…we cannot be without eachother…it’s like we are addicted to one another…….I hadn’t even shot anymore porn since then….we just wanna be together allone with no one else… I don’t want to call it jealousy, but the way we feel, we just want to be with each other.
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So i didn’t shoot anymore porn…we decided to shoot together for the last one so i wouldn’t have to be with anyone else.

Here are some pictures from our scene at Cazzo Film

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New Tattoo

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thx 4 all ur comments, you guys……I am very happy it turns out better every time I continue getting it done….as for the tatoo….

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when i was still modeling i was never allowed to have any tatoos or piercings……as a teenager, coming from a conservative military family, my parents would have probably killed me….i remember when my brother got his ear pierced with 16 and tried to hide it with a band aid for weeks…haha…my dad slapped him across the dinner table when the trick wasn’t believeable anymore….lol…..
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being in porn, i noticed almost everyone has tatoos….and i was flirting with the idea more and more, but didn’t do it still, cuz people told me “since everyone has them u r more special without”…..now that i am more or less not actively shooting porn…..i spent months on what to get……to me a tatoo has to have meaning, needs to fit the person and blend into the body in order to be considered beautyful and wearable for ur entire life.
So…my decision was an attacking lion with wings.
The lion stands for myself as my star sign is leo. The wings stand for freedom and spiritual growth. The attacking stands for the will to grow.
I want to enhance my horizon spiritually and grow…all my life…we never stop learning….having to let go our ego to become better beings…..

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the tatoo artist is a 17 year old girl…..i met her through my fiancé ricky who has friends at a studio…
even when i knew what i wanted. i was still very sceptic on finding the right person to do it, where i would feel comfortable.
when i met Janis, we clicked right away….i looked at her drawings…..and watched her work……

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the girl reminds me of myself when i drew back then…….she draws the same things with the same thoughts….beautyful faces, people, mostly with an ancient roman greek touch……janis is actually only an apprentice…still learning in a tatoo studio here in berlin called “The temple”……but in the little time she is working she became better than a lot of others who had been there for years…..

…it’s quite an act though…and getting more and more painful…lol…i started with the lion on the arm…..hardly noticed anything……now getting to the wing on the back i just wanna bite a piece of leather sometimes…..and the other wing will be over part of the chest….where i have heard it becomes even more painful….ufffff…..
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Spitfire Leather

Performing Pornstar and Callboy Ahoy at the Spitfire Leather fashion show in London.

….this is a just released video from hotrods awards and Hustlaball in London….(I was nominated in three categories….1. best international artist; 2. most wanted q.x. model, 3. best newcomer)………..I won best newcomer……….this was the opening of the Hustlaball …when Spitfire Leather was doing a fashion show on stage while i was singing pornstar and callboy ahoy ….